Or

Or: (conjunction) used to link alterntives; introducing a synonym or explanation of a preceding word or phrase; otherwise (used to introduce the consequences of something not being done or not being the case); introducing an afterthought, usually in the form of a question; archaic either

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"Anxiety Or"

overwhelmed or
underwhelmed
unsteadily off
today this is
how I feel today,
right now,
presently how I felt
last night...assaulted
swallowed
when I can't
swallow time
I box it
figure out
how to move
since when I can't
I can't
couldn't
wouldn't
focus
my eyes blur nouns
blur verbs
people, places, things,
deactivate  I
look past or
through
instead of at....

It's hard to breathe
or I'm
breathing more--
or faster
with more effort
making effortless
impossible making me
want to cry
yet when I want, I
can't, so I don't
and feel beatings
poundings
pounding
beating
reminding me I want  
or wanted to run
but still
I can't
and when I can't,
I can't focus,
and around
and around
or around
I go--
an amusement ride
blurred
a long night
with head pain,
and chest pain,
pain leaking, tired, forgotten
bones try to hold me
but they can't...
or I can't....
a part of me
they aren't mine
while spinning...
spinning...

unsteadily off-balance
convinced no one can see it
or feel it
or cares to
or whatever else
a person could
put after or....
or what I'm
looking for or from
someone, or anyone, or I
am overwhelmed and underwhelmed
or hurt