noun
- an arrangement to meet someone at a particular time and place
- an act of appointing; assigning a job or position to someone
- a job or position
- a person appointed to a job or position
- (appointments) furniture or fittings
http://oxforddictionaries.com/us/definition/american_english/appointment
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This upcoming Friday morning I head to my appointment with the oncologist. The CT scan several weeks behind me and the message left indicating said scan was 'stable' means I enter the office with a little less anxious anticipation. It does not mean I go anxiety-free to the appointment.
Little-seeming parts of these visits raise my anxiety such as whether the nurse will get a vein on the first try or whether I'll be a short-term pin cushion, whether I'll be asked to make a payment on my somewhat sizable past-due balance when I don't exactly have the money to make a payment, what the scale will show when I step on and adjust the slider myself in an effort to make my fatness less offensive to the nurse, what 'stable' actually means, what the poking and pushing and prodding will feel like, whether the smell of the office will upset my stomach and whether the flushing toilet water will do the same should I end up needing to use the bathroom.
One of my greatest anxiety producers is the list--the thought onslaught playing like a flip book where the individual frames relate but in which, from one page to the next, there exists an evident lack of progression. At times, the list feels like a fight full of one-after-the-other sucker punches. I end up dog-paddling in details while looking for ways to connect what's floating into a chain long enough to pull myself to shore so I can pull myself to sure.
The week ahead, as it turns out, is filled with appointments and possibly even an appointment. There's a counseling session, a chiropractic appointment, and a call with my health coach. Additionally, I have a date with a business reasoning/work styles assessment, something I must complete as part of the interview process for a new position I've applied to at Prudential (a position for which I've already had two interviews and a final decision on who will be appointed is expected by the end of the week). There's also an appointment this week to give a teaching demonstration as part of the interview process for a full-time teaching position at a local college. As a result, my Sunday to-do list feels a bit more cumbersome than it usually does but I'm trying to remind myself that the lengthy list of appointments and to-do's are all related to potential change...they can all be stitched together to create the change chain...and while, like most individuals, I'm terrified by change, I recognize change is overdue.
So while I flip through my own appointments this week, what about you? What does your week look like? What appointment do you have on the horizon? What change chain are you stitching together? Write about appointments.
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This upcoming Friday morning I head to my appointment with the oncologist. The CT scan several weeks behind me and the message left indicating said scan was 'stable' means I enter the office with a little less anxious anticipation. It does not mean I go anxiety-free to the appointment.Little-seeming parts of these visits raise my anxiety such as whether the nurse will get a vein on the first try or whether I'll be a short-term pin cushion, whether I'll be asked to make a payment on my somewhat sizable past-due balance when I don't exactly have the money to make a payment, what the scale will show when I step on and adjust the slider myself in an effort to make my fatness less offensive to the nurse, what 'stable' actually means, what the poking and pushing and prodding will feel like, whether the smell of the office will upset my stomach and whether the flushing toilet water will do the same should I end up needing to use the bathroom.
One of my greatest anxiety producers is the list--the thought onslaught playing like a flip book where the individual frames relate but in which, from one page to the next, there exists an evident lack of progression. At times, the list feels like a fight full of one-after-the-other sucker punches. I end up dog-paddling in details while looking for ways to connect what's floating into a chain long enough to pull myself to shore so I can pull myself to sure.
The week ahead, as it turns out, is filled with appointments and possibly even an appointment. There's a counseling session, a chiropractic appointment, and a call with my health coach. Additionally, I have a date with a business reasoning/work styles assessment, something I must complete as part of the interview process for a new position I've applied to at Prudential (a position for which I've already had two interviews and a final decision on who will be appointed is expected by the end of the week). There's also an appointment this week to give a teaching demonstration as part of the interview process for a full-time teaching position at a local college. As a result, my Sunday to-do list feels a bit more cumbersome than it usually does but I'm trying to remind myself that the lengthy list of appointments and to-do's are all related to potential change...they can all be stitched together to create the change chain...and while, like most individuals, I'm terrified by change, I recognize change is overdue.
So while I flip through my own appointments this week, what about you? What does your week look like? What appointment do you have on the horizon? What change chain are you stitching together? Write about appointments.
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